| moving on is cool |
[Feb. 1st, 2010|02:55 pm] |
but i'm so fucking bitter and have nothing but ill wishes for this fucking old dinosaur bitch that you're with.
i guess i was too good looking for you anyway, fuck off forever.
on a lighter note, i've been hanging out with this cutie.
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[Jan. 30th, 2010|09:15 am] |
my mum is dragging me to Shul today, and I'm not even fucking jewish.
i don't wake up this early for church for a reason.
stay bitter. |
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| been havin' |
[Jan. 25th, 2010|08:34 am] |
the best week!
so much to say! seriously, luckiest girl.
also, dyed my hair red- looks like somebody got their period on my head.
been spending time with somebody new, i told derrick i was interested in getting to know someoby (previously said somebody) and he flipped his shit, and unblocked me on facebook probably just to be able to lurk me and try and figure out who it is.
i told him i would tell him, but its best i don't because he is an ex of a girl i know who is kinda crazy when it comes to that kind of thing. regardless, i get along with said somebody so well, i'm very stoked.
anyway, i'm going to go back to bed, will update more later if anything arises. |
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[Jan. 10th, 2010|07:25 pm] |
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i am so ridiculously unhappy with everything. |
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[Dec. 22nd, 2009|10:54 pm] |
can i just trade this life for another one?
thanks. |
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| so much christmas shopping |
[Dec. 20th, 2009|10:02 pm] |
i'm very happy
also, got a very nice gift :)
mmm
wish i could keep you much longer, i know you gotta go cause you've got things to do
wish i could keep you much longer, now you're too busy for me like i was to you. |
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| so much for fucking sleeping |
[Dec. 16th, 2009|03:46 am] |
time to change my number again
fuck everybody.
the worst part, is not having derrick to stick up for me.
why the fuck do i seem to know the shittiest people?
hermit mode.
the one time i actually fall asleep |
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[Dec. 14th, 2009|04:36 am] |
i was waiting for the longest time, she said.
i thought you forgot.
it is hard to forget, i said, when there is such an empty space when you are gone. - Brian Andreas
When we lose one we love, our bitterest tears are called forth by the memory of hours when we loved not enough.
- Maurice Maeterlinck |
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[Dec. 14th, 2009|04:32 am] |
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fuck you stephanie meyer.
i am so upset right now, it's ridiculous. the only thing i feel capable of doing is crying my eyes out. i don't know why i've been okay for the past week or so, but it's finally setting in that derrick and i aren't together and i'll never have the perfect planned out life that i had. i can't believe i watched new moon, i knew it would make me feel this way. i was so secure in who i was, and what i was going to do with my life. i got too comfortable, it always happens that way. i don't even know what to say anymore, moving on is the logical thing, and the smart thing, but i don't know if i am capable.
seriously, fuck you stephanie meyer, you have ruined romanticism for every man out there, in turn ruining it for women.
i just want someone to marry me and let me be the perfect house wife, that is what i need to keep my mind off of this shit.
fuck everything. |
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[Dec. 10th, 2009|11:20 am] |
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i have this overwhelming urge to just say, fuck everything and become a housewife.
fuck- i just need to marry rich. |
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[Dec. 9th, 2009|03:31 am] |
internet porn is annoying.
eating some milk chocolate covered cherries, and drinking arizona. mm
i'm getting used to never sleeping, this is odd.
i really need to start working on a regular schedule.
i'm thinking about giving kit away, my house mates hate her and i have to admit she is so fucking attention hungry, like she has separation anxiety.
regardless. life is good, kind of, i have a lot of unanswered questions for a somebody- i'll get the nerve eventually.
.night |
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| give me this |
[Dec. 7th, 2009|06:49 am] |
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"Sharky Tea Infuser"
it's not even 7 and i'm awake.
for good reason, but i still wish i was sleeping.
Energydrinkforbreakfast?
oui. |
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[Dec. 6th, 2009|05:12 pm] |
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life is good, when you're a mega babe.
went to the gym today, so good.
last night was so fun, hung out at kyles with jess, kyle, kristen and sam, since he's back for the holidays! SO much fun! |
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| i am a creature of the night |
[Dec. 6th, 2009|11:48 am] |
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my life is undergoing the best changes!
stoked! |
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[Nov. 30th, 2009|03:10 am] |
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I haven't written in a while.
I still don't sleep, i keep getting tattoed, and i have a cat now. Cutest spawn of satan ever.
I still work at stream unfortunately, but i'm going to school in January if I can get my shit together.
The winter weather is starting, boo urns. Not excited, Jess and I may be going to Toronto on Tuesday to see her lova back from tour. Life is crazy, I'm always poor but fairly happy- there is someone new in my life who I am very grateful for. I thought i wouldn't meet anyone worth knowing in London, but I've met a lot of great people who i'm glad to be friends with. I miss my family a lot, life would be so easy if i lived there and did nothing all of the time, I was discussing that with a friend tonight- so easy.
My heart is dancing around, it doesn't know up from down these days. Derrick wants nothing to do with me, but who knows how long that will last for. My room is painted gray, and decorated with marilyn pictures, posters, and lots of betty boop, zombies, alice in wonderland and pulp fiction posters. I know, sounds completely unrelated and busy- but my room pulls if off nicely.
I think i'm going to sleep for once, I have to go to work in the morning, which I'm not excited about.
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[Jun. 4th, 2009|08:52 am] |
I moved this week. I am poor and foodless. Sleepless as well. My head is so fucked up. I wish I could talk about it to anyone but as if that would be possible.
Angsty as fuck. |
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| next up |
[Apr. 26th, 2009|11:23 am] |
gypsy chest, with "do all things with love" on my collar bone
and my owl thigh piece.
half sleeve finished on wednesday.
stoked. |
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